Your past will catch up,
No matter how fast you run,
Because when you pant,
Or lose your breath,
Or believe that you left it far behind,
Your past will creep up your spine,
With soft deadly fingers,
And tilt your world.
He counted the lights in the urban city down the lane while I counted his scars. I wondered how he smiled so often with those heavy stitches on his lips. He said these were the consequences of bottling up too many secrets within himself. I always felt a very strong connection with him for we shared most of the cuts, those upon the soul. These scars were only for the body but on the inside, they were wounds that would rot me to death. He made my wounds shine over its cracks and told me how I was so beautiful with them on my skin. I used to believe that the world was dark, hiding deepest secrets behind every face. He told that it was the bright glint in my eyes that was eclipsed by the darkness and negative vibes of some undeserving people. I used to believe that my past followed me only to haunt me as I kept closing all doors to keep myself away from it, but he called me from behind a closed door and asked me to learn from my mistakes. I was a mess with all broken threads of trust, he was the magic that tied all knots to one that lead me to him. I sulked over the thought that I was better off alone with the fire within me. He took me to the darkest places where I learnt to become my own source of satisfaction. I was raised with the myth that a girl and a boy could have only a love tangent with each other. Here, I am standing on the top of the world having him for a lifetime as a friend. The two minds with a set of different thoughts where I felt we met by destiny and he claimed destiny was just an illusion.
“It’s our pain that found each other.” He said.
I don’t want anyone to miss me.
For I know how it feels
To notice an empty seat beside in the theatre
And immediately smile at the flashbacks.
It cringes deep inside, doesn’t it?
For I know how lonely it feels
When you want to share something with them
But the vague feeling crawls by
“They’re not a part of my life anymore.”
For I know how haunted those lanes feel
By the ghost of memories
Where two footsteps had always walked,
Just by yours.
I don’t want anyone to miss me.
And I do all I can,
To prove my will to stay.
Call it my kindness or foolishness,
But I don’t want anyone to miss me.
I stand by them, call them, talk to them,
Make them feel loved and most importantly,
Trust them that in return,
They too will never let me miss them.
But the habit of ruining doesn’t leave people alone,
The habit of leaving doesn’t skip a soul.
No matter how much I try to float,
In this tide of uninvited memories, I have always drowned more than I ever rose.
Happy New Year!
January 1st, New Year or also known as the day to make resolutions for the coming year.
Resolutions help us become a better person or correct a habit that you might not like about yourself or even make the world a better place by contributing. Sometimes, we fail at executing it and sometimes, we don’t. But even a simple change in yourself can be the ripple to a life-changing wave.
Here are 6 simple life-changing resolutions that you can make for 2018:
Show more kindness
It is important to show kindness to everyone who deserves it. You must try to be more empathetic towards the conditions of others.
Learn to say, “No”!
While helping everyone and trying to fit in is important, it is also important to help oneself. You must learn to say, “NO” to things that go against your principles. Resist peer pressure and make no false promises.
Spend more time with family
If you were ever a family person, maybe this is the year you should change that. Spend more time with your family, make memories and get to know more about each other.
Step out of your comfort zone
It is important to explore every once in a while and step out of your comfort zone. It might seem scary in the beginning but it can lead up to a whole bunch of new experiences and self-discovery.
Fly high but remember to land and stay grounded
Always remember that compliments shouldn’t get to your head and criticism shouldn’t get to your heart.
Believe in planning but also appreciate spontaneity
Learn to plan more often and do it in a better way but also be prepared just in case it doesn’t work out. Also, indulge yourself in spontaneity more often.
Let’s welcome 2018 with warm hands, clear minds, jolly smiles and happy hearts!